The 100th Rhapsody: Me and Reminiscence of the past.

1.Me and kindness of a stranger.

Well this one mark my 100th post. I think I've been around the block for around since 2006. That 3 years. I wrote somewhere in this blog before that maintaining a blog akin to maintaining a long distance relationship. Indeed it is, as we need to constantly pay a visit and try to write one or two what ever the thing that cross our mind. Nevertheless its 100th post (for my blogspot). So I guess it is best if we wrote something nice.

So to begin the story of this 100th post ( I know it seems like showing off haha), I asked my friend the earlier night to bring me to airport to buy ticket for my mum. After having trouble with the website (unable to pay via direct debit for other party unless we traveling too), the next day my friend and went to the airport so I could by the ticket on sales counter. So when it is my turn, I told the sales-girl/cabin crew about my problem with the sites and why I opt to buy on the counter. She told me that I can use the direct debit method as she did the same for her cousins few days ago, and she promised to show how if I could just waited for awhile. Still I insisted to just buy from the counter but she said that the price gonna be way higher than buying online so I waited. After all I got nothing to lose. So after waited for awhile, she open another online counter for me, but as the pc got problem she invited me in, yes she did invite me inside into the office. Well this gave me the opportunities to see the scoop behind the scene, where the cabin crew lepaking themselves while waiting for their night flight or doing some ground floor task such as selling ticket. They've been multi-tasking! Anyway back to the office, after filling out the steps I've reached to the payment methods, and there the problem occurs, I cant make payment through the m2u. And yes she wondering too why the problem occurs. And she asked me to used her own aa.com account, and still the same problem occurs. See I've told you rite.

So she also blur as there is no direct debit section in the web. And reaching for her purse, she offered to help me to pay using her own credit card and of course I have to pay her back...unfortunately she didn't bring her cc. Well its ok since she already offered to help and the intentions is good enough for me already. Perhaps lady luck was on my side or simply her colleagues were eavesdropping on our conversation, he offered his helped too. Well actually he sitting not so far from us, and I was... well I'm touched to be honest. After settling the payment and pay her colleague cash on the spot, and thanking both of them well for making my day brighter, I went straight home with a smile with a promise to make others day better. Kindness is infectious things and tend to become chain reaction.



Here the sreenshot which contain the direct debit payment method.


2.Me and my eastern star.

I remember one phrase. It said like this "people might forget your name,but people would certainly remember how u make them feel." I believe in this phrase to certain extend. More to towards how people make me feel rather than my action towards others.And yes i still remember the name of cabin crew/sales agent on the ground. Both of them.

So I receive this strange invite to open a Tagged account. I had numerous of invinte before which i turn down. This same guy also follows me on my Twitter, tho i dont tweet much. Still, the mystery how did he got my e-mail i don't actually remember and I don't remember giving e-mail to someone as way of communicating with others. Its a good thing that my e-mail haven't changing since late 2002 or 2003 (that make I've been using this same email for 7 years. Wow!) And I accept his invitation, to see who this guy actually is. Turn out he is the guy who i used to have a crush on during my 1st year. Looking good as usual sending his invite from ukraine, and I remember I was kinda sad that my roomates (my roomates and this guy are coming from the same matriculation) told me that he is going to Ukraine to further his studies in Medic. Well... life goes on as it is. I certainly didn't expect him to say "of course i still remember you :)".

Flash backward, during our excursions trip to Kelantan, things got steamy heated in the bus as we sit next to each other, however for my dissapointment he tagged along with other guy, who is a bit sissy-ish (and the very same guy who accusing me that I grab his flat ass- turn out after two years the truth emerge, that he just bad mouthed me behind my back, not that we're friend or something, but at last I'm vindicated. No wonder one of my friend keep calling my "ass-grabbing guy" lol.)


And I ask him whether he still remember me and , well he said he still even remember me and the funny things is he couldn't remember how other guys (the one who called me ass-grabber) look like. Well it make me flattered, the same feeling just like my lucky star did to me when we finally 'found' each other. It is good to know that someone still remember you well after this year. And it definitely make my day.

Me and many ramblings

1. Me and coldness

Damn, the coldness really kill me with despair. I think thats is why people appreciate the warmth for they have been in coldness before. Warmth sometimes lead to annoying heat, but rage and anger definitely more lively. Despair and sadness literally suck the life out of you.

2.Me and home

I guess I'm pretty much engulf with other matters that I almost forgot that I'm going home tomorrow. Yay! Although I'm still not excited about tomorrow travel and I know the background music that suppose to play right now are either Home by Daughtry or Home by Buble. But ever since I heard this Indonesian song "Aku dan Diri Mu" I pretty much cant take it out of my head.Perhaps... because there are a lots of things left unsaid.

3.Me and conclusion

I guess in the end things sometimes doesnt goes out the way we expect it. Sometimes fate on your side, other times, well you pretty mess up. Either way you got to trust whatever suppose to happen will happen. Somehow you’ll always end up with the person you’re mean to be with.

Me and conversation

Perhaps it was the most honest conversation i ever had in a long time.

But I always hate a hanging ending. The mental torture that you get for guessing the answer really kills you. Anticipating is really more painful than the simple truth. Oh trust me, for the truth set us free!

Me and mistake

I believe in karma, and just like life, karma can be a bitch too. As my friend said in his Facebook; wonders how life should be? Smooth & straight like y=mx+c? Or bumpy once a while like ax^2+bx+c=0? Or enjoying your lowest moment before getting the ultimate goal like y=log(x)? Or swinging all the time like y=sin(x)? Or with no ultimate goal to achieve like y=tan(x)?

And the payback always, well hard. Its hard to face the hard truth about yourself. Thinking back the choices that you made in the past and thinking it was might be a mistake. It even harder when you took the chances, and fail. I guess the right thing to do right now is taking the positive steps and suck it up and face the world-while i’m still not whining about it.

All i want for christmas....

yup its the real brokeback mountain

...is to turn back time.

everytime when someone ask me what did i study back in university, i've always told them that i was from physics school. i rather not tell them that i'm a geophysics graduate who still unemployed by oil and gas company. and the geophysics word would raise the eyebrows of many. it is a strange word for some. some even thought that "oh that is that sort of geography+physics thingy where when u graduate u will teach either geography or physics isnt it?" err...that made mw speechless, not until i explained to them its actually from the word geology+physics hence became geophysics, even so i have to tell them it is an earth science course. then followed by the long "ooooo...".

back then i really had the vague idea of what this course would offer-except for the fact that this discipline would lead one directly to oil and gas industry. i never thought that i would get this course as senior back then often told you that your 1st choice of UPU form would not be the course that u would took for the rest of your university life. so i design that the geology course that i want, i put it in the middle of the list of my UPU form. well who knows, such strategy would lead me to penang instead of to kl-due to the course of course.after nearly flop the 1st year, which lead me to extend the study-few times i wanna change my course but i stick to geophysics till the end.

for those who doesnt know, geophysics is a study of geology with lots of mathematical concepts. The word geophysics itself is derived from a combination of two words geology and physics. lots of lots of mathematical concept. the geology is there, but it come with mathematical concept and understanding. thus your final year paper would likely to consist of lots of lots of equation rather than 3 pages long essay. ok i admit, the 3 pages long essay would help too. its neither easy or hard course. as my senior once told me, this is a do or die course. nothing in between. unfortunately i had to agree with him at some point.

as we gonna celebrate the coming year with rather gloomy expression and the job market rather look grim especially with the down falling of the oil price(something that me myself predicted)and lots of company, oil and gas included freeze their employment-jeez thanks grinch for stealing the early christmas feeling-left one rather wondering. or me wondering how would the year of 2009 would look like. at some point, i sometimes wishing that i put geology course on top of my UPU list instead of this unknown mathematically infested geophysics course...

Multiple choices

Man i forgot how long since the last time I blog. It like almost 6 months. And that last entry was written out of nowhere about what?? I don't know...., some lovey dovey crap. And at that time I was in transition between job. And it is the same for this entry, in between of something....I hate this feeling. Well it kinda unexplainable, but I definitely hate it. And when I look back my high school friend who made it to their career, that feeling sucks. I guess its the ego things and I really thought I would be happy for them but the truth is I wasn't. How I wish they fuck off the hey-i-got-a-better job than yours. Okay, probably they didn't think like that.

Sometimes I regret the choices I made in the past. Like the course that I took, the university that I choose, and many more. Stick to science what-ever or take law or something or even accounting or engineering. I was wondering what if I taken another road. And Robert Frost poem keep popping up itself into my brain, and yeah I made an entry bout that. I guess the hardest thing is not making the right choices, but living with that choices. And its especially hard when you think that choice isn't the right one. And the only thing that I'm good at is being gay.


i think i'm good at being one