Me and love reflection/Me and my fault

At the moment, I'm struck with one big epiphanies. All the great love stories, they just doesn't begin immediately. They takes times to develop, they faces many hardship, conquered it and won it. Well from there its another story of happily ever after or whatnot. So whats up with me, trying too much to jump so fast into that loveship. Probably thats is where I have done my mistake is. I guess everything has it own times, has it own rhythm and the moment we try to take control or push it, even the slightest movement could ever change the original course it was set to be. Although I like to call myself as an adventurer, merely trusting the feeling and lets the heart take the risk, and even if the risk is worth taking, perhaps part of being a good adventurer is choosing wisely which adventure that is worth taking.

I guess when you're were engulf with that demonic passion (just exaggerating there), I think it best to cool everything down. Or perhaps its time to move on and looking for another adventure. I guess I'll just cool everything off first.

Better

i stumbled upon this very interesting video clip of latest boyzone single "better". The video featured all members with their love interest- and that including Stephen - the openly gay member of bz. feel like yesterday when he first announced his sexual orientation.



i remembered someone wedding vow, "for better or worse, i stand by you"... the song remind me of that vow. ;)

Northern Star

...and I've found my guiding star.

always there but out of reach,
guiding with warm love at distant,
but radiate coldness of the nocturnal night,
but I'm lucky,
for I would be lost without you.

Eternity

For I've waited for eternity

1.What is the best nickname that u ever had?
A: Teddy bear

2. Do you think suicide is the best way?
A: Noppers. thats the dumbest ever

3. Rate your social life from scale 1 to 10.
A: 9 i think minus the fact that i dont fancy spending time with people i dislike but since i didnt spend my time with them at all now i think i shud put it at 10

4. Are you in love with someone at the moment?
A: Can u really tell??? xD i didnt know it was THAT obvious.

5. are you missing someone at the moment?
A: I am.but try not to think to much about it

6. Would you die for the one you love?
A: I just dont know it yet.

7. Do you think love hurts?
A: Love isnt love until it hurts. Absolutely.

8. Whats the best thing about love at first sight?
A: (I love this question) U realise at that moment that you like a person.

9. Whats the worst thing about love?
A: To love but not to love in return...

10. Will you wait for someone you love?
A: for eternity ;)

11 . What song best describes your love life at this second?
A: Since I'm already screwed, here a message for you,my heart wide open..... figure it out.

14. Have you talked to the person you love on the phone?
A: Not yet at that stage, but in the past ofcourse

15. Do you keep memories or try to forget them?
A: The way u make me feel-Steps (people will remember how u make they feel. so treat people nicely asshole)

16. Is love always on your side or the opposite way?
A: Hurm, that depends and i can't really say that the Lady Luck isnt smiling at me currently, but i guess it never hurt to be on the safe side (Arghh Lady Luck pls date me!!!! pls pls)

19. Are you sick of love?
A: Never will be :)~

20. Are you sick of questions on love?
A: not really. Love love love love? hahaha Love is an interesting subject.

21. Where are you going tomorrow?
A: No where.

22. What do u want so badly right now?
A: Do I really have to say it? (shy)

23. Do you think money is everything?
A: Love is everything, but we do need money too rite..

24. What song are you listening right now?
A: Maroon 5-Wont go home without u

25. Whats the song, you last sang?
A: with you-chris charlie brown

26 . How much do you love music?
A: Very much. Music make my day

27. Do you play an instrument?
A: recorder (LOL)

28. Have you written your own song?
A: Never

29. What movie did you last watch?
A: definitely maybe. (best romantic comedy so far and definitely gonna watch it for the 2nd time)

31. Do you believe in forever?
A: no because i believe in eternity (for eternity is far more serious than forever)

I'm screwed

I've chatted with my friend in msn and it end like this:

"You too, which ever guy that got you must be so lucky"

I was telling him that his bf is so lucky to have him in his life, and no I dont have whatever love-hate tension dynamic feeling towards him, it more towards a platonic level kinda-relationship.

His remarks remind me of a reply from the "apple-pie" that-i-would-love-to-have
(i was G-chatting over gmail and sms-ing with him the whole nite last nite) and i got a very interesting reply from him "Its interesting what has began as sex proposition led to."

Ofcourse I modified the sms a bit. And I think Paris Hilton-Screwed lyric tells it all:

Since I'm already screwed
Here's a message to you
My heart's wide open
I'm just not getting through to the lover in you
Yet I'm still hoping
That tonight, tonight, you're gonna turn down the lights
And give me a little more room just to prove it to you
What do I gotta do?

By the way, I found this hot MTV



Could anything be hotter than this music video?