Finally... I've just come back from Pedu damn yesterday with a big relieve, and i woke up today with even bigger relieve. Its not because i'm tired or i'm finally can get out of that blood sucker leech kingdom, but somehow, that few days of expedition to Pedu Damn (and an escape of somewhat) I realized one thing 'bout my self or rather confirming my confused enquiry about myself.
Okay, there is been a big question keep playing in mind regarding my sexuality orientation. Its to know whether I'm gay or bisexual. To be frank i don't like bisexual and i dont like to be one. Few weeks back i keep thinking that I'm becoming something that i hate. Or is it that just a process that some people will experience along the way???
Anyway, finally when i wake up today, i wake up with a pleasant gay-themed dream with a smile. I know, I'm still gay and proud of being one. Keep remembering my friend sexy ass and how much I wanna to kiss that lips of his. It sound like a desperation, but believe me I feel much better thinking like that. Its been awhile since i have a feeling like that and in between (few weeks back) I'm kinda develop a feeling towards women. Even dreaming that I'm having sex with them. And I was like ewwh.I'm gay remember. Its kinda like the feeling of a straight guy have when they dream of making love with another guy. Except in my situation, its the opposite.
I did watch some gay porno, browse some gay guy profile, but it doesnt work.I dont have the kind of feeling that i have now (towards men). And i hate the part where i dream that i'm having a sex with a girl. Right now I think like I'm Nakatsu situation when he found out that Mizuki is not boy (Hanakimi drama). Haha ore-wa homo janaii!! oops i mean ore-wa bisex janaii~~
Oh by the way did i mention about Pedu Damn Expedition and the blood sucker leech kingdom? Well thats another story. (No worries nothing much happen hehe)
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